even as i left florida, far enough far enough wasn't far enough

as much as i constantly complain about maya class, i realized today how completely hilarious it is. i realized this as our entire class was crowded around one of the lab computers watching this cartoon of bill gates and steve jobs fighting (here). There's a scene where the Finder (as in the app in osx) is on stage rocking out. anyways we spent like half an hour going over the latest youtube crazes.
i'm going home to dallas on thursday. planning on spending the week at the pool at the verandah. i need to work on my base tan for the bahamas, which we leave for on the 17th. i'm flying from dallas to philly on the 16th, to hang out with amy and stay at her house, and then her mom and dad can drive us to newark the next morning. everyone else is driving or training down from ny. but i guess newark is closer to philly than to ny. amy and i are going to do a little rocky-inspired tour of philly...the art museum steps and everything.
anyways, it's supposed to be 75 the whole week in dallas. i also am gonna go see all the dallas performing arts center construction projects, so i'll post some pictures. and shop. it is disgusting that i am capable of missing a mall. but northpark isn't a mall. for gods sakes, they're opening up a public library there. it's like i'm being sucked into things i know are soulless...as if i'm part of a new mutant breed of consumer that attaches no moral significance to traditionally 'superficial' experiences. i just go on my immediate reaction, which is...wonder? security? the fact that this kind of stuff exists somewhere? that america is a reality and for the first time, tangible?
and i'm finally tired of feigning disgust at this stuff. it's part of my life, and it's part of everyone else's, whether they admit to it or not.
also, listen to the new modest mouse album. the song 'florida' is amazing. the guitarist from the smiths is now officially part of their band - HA! the lyrics are actually pretty much how i feel about florida too.
i feel this sadness when i think about driving through the country during summers, through pennsylvania, wisconsin, nebraska, colorado, nevada, texas. i miss oberlin ohio, eerie, osh kosh, amarillo - their transparency, their invisibility. everything good that happened there. it feels good.
this is what modest mouse does to me. it makes me think about this stuff. even more than every day life already does.

i think i want to drive out through the plains this summer...yeah