i'll write the album of the year

ugh what a weekend. my god. its like hell here. i cannot wait to go back to dallas. it's like everything was going great for a while and now suddenly i live in the house from aquateen except without frylock,shake,or meatwad. just the same enviornment. okay, that metaphor didnt work just forget it.

anyways, yesterday night started out great, perfect - we hung out in jarett's room and then we went to anna/caitlyn's party, which was really great - they opened up both their rooms and filled the bathtub with ice and drinks. they even had snacks - you're lucky if you even see some cut up limes at most parties at slc. luxurious! anyways it was really fun. unfortch later i slapped justin for saying something really meanspirited, so then of course we spent the rest of the night fighting. this same fight keeps happening over and over. but last night it was truly inimical. how embarassing. but really. i'm tired of him being able to push, hit, insult, and generally harass people when he drinks, and then when he provokes me i get in huge trouble. anyways i feel so embrassed about what happened, but listen to the advice annicka just gave me, which is brilliant:

but people get butt ass wasted and make asses out of themselves ALL THE TIME. youre just another one of them. people actually dont even give a shit or remember, theyre just worrying aobut whether theyll get laid that night

anyways after anna's we went over to the slonim 4 party and that was okay. i will go out on a limb here and say that i drank too much last night. but hey, when else am i going to act like a fool?

i found out that my friend leah from berlin is moving to ny! YES! she is the most wonderful person. she is that classic type of european (shes a dane) that's all business on the outside and hilariously neurotic on the inside. she is so smart...she goes to oberlin for art history but she's considering med school. badass! anyways if i don't get university housing we're going to live together. i'm really hoping that she'll paint our apartment white. tired cliche anyone? but it's true.

another really exciting thing that i found out today is that the entire dollaghan clan is renting two houses in rhode island for a week this summer. YES!!! every summer since i was a baby we used to all go to rhode island - in 1991 we even had to evacuate for hurricane bob!!! i think we go to rhode island because that's where grandma's parents settled when they came over from sweden. i think her uncles built a bunch of houses on narraganset. anyways we haven't gone since i was in elementary school and now ITS HAPPENING! BOOYAH! every time the dollaghan family gets together it is a nonstop laugh riot. they are all the funniest coolest people and i've always been pissed that i'm not more like them. for starters annicka and i are the only ones out of 12 cousins and seven aunts and uncles with dark hair. WTF? ive always been resentful of this fact. i don't know why, i mean i like my hair. it guess i made into a symbol of how i wish we were closer to colorado and all of them. i mean we're very close, it's just that they all live in the same city and so they get to see each other more than twice a year.

in other news my work has come to a standstill because of my ocd about loosing my skills. like my whole life, with every thing i've been moderately good at, after a little while i loose interest or i just can't do it anymore. it happened with swimming, painting, writing...and now i'm terrified it's gonna happen with this stuff. so i'm convinced that if i do my best on my conference projects i won't be able to do well next year in grad school. so yeah. just a little glimpse into the insane logic of my constantly terror-stricken mind.

will it ever stop raining?

strange days

what an eventful two days!
it all began on friday, when we decided to party in my room for a change. it was GREAT! we had so much fun. katie had bought a gigantic bottle of svedka and in true soph yr fashion, we mixed with either sprite, cranberry or orange juice. we listened to:
young love - find a new way
the knife - we share our mother's health
test-icicles - circle square triangle
annie - heartbeat
basement jaxx - good luck
and i put up new lights in my room so it looked great. after a while, we had to go over to the SLC lampoon party, in slonim 8, unfortch - but it was funny too. they said they needed my ipod, and to play some 80s, hahaha, so i did. this other person came over with a nano and put on babyface or something...everyone stopped dancing and was like, hey put the music back on. so i put my music back on and i think they got mad. not sure though. it was kinda fun, i felt bad for the weirdness. but it was okay. the embarassment peak level was reached when i poured a 22oz miller light all over myself by accident. i actually had to walk away from the conversation i was having with these two guys from nyu or somehwere. there was just nothing to say that could make it better. the lampoon crowd is pretty much hipsters. though amy and jarett are in charge and they're not, so who am i to judge? but it was a kind of funny party:

justin got sick and had to leave. when this kid julian was sitting in my lap and i couldn't see anyone i knew around me, i knew it was time to round up the group and get out. we went back to my room and danced. this guy ross was there, who's in lampoon, and we have this running joke - we don't know each other, but when we were introduced, he said "oh yah, we made out at the coming out dance freshman yr," which is a hilarious thing to say because for most people at slc, there's a real and tangible possibility that anyone to whom they're introduced to will say these words ( and be serious). so most of the time in my room was spent listening ross make up grosser, weirder things we 'did' at the coming out dance, while amy and jarett rolled around on the disgusting floor laughing. come on, i don't even know that guy. i was laughing so hard though, i felt sick. peoplg were rioting for taco bell, but clearly no one could drive. so we went to the pub. i don't know how. amy bought me a piece of pizza, because i couldn't find my card.
we said goodnight.
then saturday got weirder.

justin and i had to go into the city to see claudia's opening at PS 122, and so that was great. she's a genius. i hope she doesn't leave next yr, joe will be heartbroken i think..she's important. laura needed her nipple rings changed, and since looking at nipples makes justin sick, i was the only one left to sit in the room with her while the guy did it. he kept talking about when his nipple ring got ripped out while he was getting a tattoo. they made us wait because we were so vanilla, i think. but then we went over to broadway to go to UNIQLO, which BLOWS!!! it's this huge store, and everything is weird beige colors and really poorly made. very boring. they call it 'the japanese gap,' but it seemed more like the american gap, but taken DOWN three notches.
it was a great looking store though:


it was full of 20something urbanites looking lost. really dissapointing!
so laura and i went next door to h&m while we waited for justin and hunter at uniqlo. i got some loot. then we went over to justin's friend's new apartment, which was ON st. mark's place, wtf??? her dad bought this place for her, it was beautiful - awesome kitchen with rusted metal plate floors and then beautiful light wood for the rest of the floors, and a huge window looking out, not even on another wall. damn. right over the chipotle on that street. i can't imagine living on st. mark's. 'the times square of commodified boho culture' or whatever. the place reminds me of highschool.
it was such a weird few hours. we watched RIZE (the david lachapelle doc about krumping) and ordered in from moustache, this awesome middle eastern place. i had falafel and a spinache/cheese/filo dough role. oh god it was great. so then i started to freak out, so we left to get some green tea frozen yoghurt from the automat next door, but it was tooo full of people. so we went to the grocery store underneath her apt. it was so weird, god. we got back on the train. i had to immediately go to sleep when i got home and when i woke up this morning i was STILL freaking out.
its so cold here!