strange days

what an eventful two days!
it all began on friday, when we decided to party in my room for a change. it was GREAT! we had so much fun. katie had bought a gigantic bottle of svedka and in true soph yr fashion, we mixed with either sprite, cranberry or orange juice. we listened to:
young love - find a new way
the knife - we share our mother's health
test-icicles - circle square triangle
annie - heartbeat
basement jaxx - good luck
and i put up new lights in my room so it looked great. after a while, we had to go over to the SLC lampoon party, in slonim 8, unfortch - but it was funny too. they said they needed my ipod, and to play some 80s, hahaha, so i did. this other person came over with a nano and put on babyface or something...everyone stopped dancing and was like, hey put the music back on. so i put my music back on and i think they got mad. not sure though. it was kinda fun, i felt bad for the weirdness. but it was okay. the embarassment peak level was reached when i poured a 22oz miller light all over myself by accident. i actually had to walk away from the conversation i was having with these two guys from nyu or somehwere. there was just nothing to say that could make it better. the lampoon crowd is pretty much hipsters. though amy and jarett are in charge and they're not, so who am i to judge? but it was a kind of funny party:

justin got sick and had to leave. when this kid julian was sitting in my lap and i couldn't see anyone i knew around me, i knew it was time to round up the group and get out. we went back to my room and danced. this guy ross was there, who's in lampoon, and we have this running joke - we don't know each other, but when we were introduced, he said "oh yah, we made out at the coming out dance freshman yr," which is a hilarious thing to say because for most people at slc, there's a real and tangible possibility that anyone to whom they're introduced to will say these words ( and be serious). so most of the time in my room was spent listening ross make up grosser, weirder things we 'did' at the coming out dance, while amy and jarett rolled around on the disgusting floor laughing. come on, i don't even know that guy. i was laughing so hard though, i felt sick. peoplg were rioting for taco bell, but clearly no one could drive. so we went to the pub. i don't know how. amy bought me a piece of pizza, because i couldn't find my card.
we said goodnight.
then saturday got weirder.

justin and i had to go into the city to see claudia's opening at PS 122, and so that was great. she's a genius. i hope she doesn't leave next yr, joe will be heartbroken i think..she's important. laura needed her nipple rings changed, and since looking at nipples makes justin sick, i was the only one left to sit in the room with her while the guy did it. he kept talking about when his nipple ring got ripped out while he was getting a tattoo. they made us wait because we were so vanilla, i think. but then we went over to broadway to go to UNIQLO, which BLOWS!!! it's this huge store, and everything is weird beige colors and really poorly made. very boring. they call it 'the japanese gap,' but it seemed more like the american gap, but taken DOWN three notches.
it was a great looking store though:


it was full of 20something urbanites looking lost. really dissapointing!
so laura and i went next door to h&m while we waited for justin and hunter at uniqlo. i got some loot. then we went over to justin's friend's new apartment, which was ON st. mark's place, wtf??? her dad bought this place for her, it was beautiful - awesome kitchen with rusted metal plate floors and then beautiful light wood for the rest of the floors, and a huge window looking out, not even on another wall. damn. right over the chipotle on that street. i can't imagine living on st. mark's. 'the times square of commodified boho culture' or whatever. the place reminds me of highschool.
it was such a weird few hours. we watched RIZE (the david lachapelle doc about krumping) and ordered in from moustache, this awesome middle eastern place. i had falafel and a spinache/cheese/filo dough role. oh god it was great. so then i started to freak out, so we left to get some green tea frozen yoghurt from the automat next door, but it was tooo full of people. so we went to the grocery store underneath her apt. it was so weird, god. we got back on the train. i had to immediately go to sleep when i got home and when i woke up this morning i was STILL freaking out.
its so cold here!

we share our mother's health

its so grey here...it looks like oxford, how i remember it last year. sarah lawrence is a bizarre place, especially now. there's no more drag queens or glitter or coming out dances.. so now it can't justify itself by being special.
yesterday night was weird, we drank beers in jarett's room and then had to go down to this party katie was co-hosting, but there was barely anyone there and the music sucked. i left before everyone else did, i couldn't take the awkwardness. there's something about an almost empty room and loud music that i can only take for 4-5 minutes... plus the obligatory sad guy on his phone outside. its too depressing.
i came home and went right to bed. it felt like 10 out, so my room was freezing. it was hard to go to sleep. i had a dream about something crazy which i now can't remember...it had to do with being in a 1960s prefab highrise utopia with streets and stuff, jetsons' style, and being in a class where the professor was a mix of house/forte/jarett.

1.00am
i just came home, because everyone was smoking a joint and for us, that means that in 30 minutes we'll be fighting. tonight we went out for mexican, i forgot my ID so when i ordered a beer at the bar i got embarassed. i think this drunk old scarsdalian who later spilled his margarita laughed at me. though i talked to jarett about next yr and he said that texas is big for actors right now? i guess his friend who had a 5-episode role on prisonbreak had been living in austin. it makes me feel better to think that everyone but me won't necessarily be living in manhattan next yr. justin and jarett have been trying to figure out how to tell amy that they can't live with her next yr - too much fighting i guess. even though this is negative it still makes me feel left out. but then when i consider the alternative - living in manhattan on minimum wage - i realize i would never do it. it makes no sense. why pay 800 dollars a month to live in some shithole and work like a dog to be able to, and have no fun because the weather sucks and everyone's a dick. plus, i'm sure we'd never get to see each other, so why not wait for a time when we can all afford to live right by each other and actually be able to enjoy it. maybe i'm an idiot, missing the phase of 'miserable post college apartment/job' with your friends, but the way things are going with us...it seems unlikely. walking to the car today, jarett said "it seems like all our friends are going seperate ways." it was such a sad moment. i felt like crying...everyone can say that except him. he's always acted oblivious to infighting, and just let it blow over. it was a kind of...deafening statement. katie spent the whole night in karis' room with evan, mattso, owen and owen's friend. really, the guy seems so self-important. everyone likes him because hes in lampoon. i think he's trying so hard to make up for his shortness/etc. that he's convinced everyone he's a nice/funny guy. he comes across as pretty vacant.
early today after brunch, justin amy and laura and i watched the prince of egypt, which was unexpectedly great. justin is obsessed with all things jewish since he returned from israel, and so that includes early dreamworks adaptations of exodus. jeff goldblum was aaron (aron? i dont know), classic.
tomorrow justin and i have plans to go into the city and see the josef hoffmann interiors show at die neue gallerie and then go to the new uniqlo, which is the first US store of "japan's GAP." 60dollar cashmere sweaters, blah blah...im excited though, i need to spend some cash. unfortch i dont have much left after that shitty mexican food tonight and my grad application fees and all the other shit i've bought. but nonetheless i'm excited.