trees there will be

it started snowing tonight, only like a quarter of an inch. we had the group for design in jiddy's room, justin made me so mad: we were talking about planning a trip to russel wright's house upstate, and justin says "someone really just needs to take responsibility and plan this, and book the van and ask for money." i said, "well, go ahead!" and he said "why should i have to, i don't even know who this guy is and i sure as hell don't care about going to his house." ugh i was so angry. he'll suggest things to do and then ask US to follow up on them - he'll never do it. it's because he's afraid of being embarassed or ashamed by this group. he'd rather do nothing than feel like an idiot. then he got bored and left. he was stoned and said he had to go to a "hillel meeting," which of course he later referred to as "my friends from my israel trip smoking up and talking about israel." it's like cool, make us feel like lazy assholes who refuse to do your bidding and then run off to get even more stoned. it was so lame. he refuses to contribute to the group, but criticizes us for not doing things he wants to do. i feel bad, i think rachael and sarah expected more from us...we just wanted to talk about stephen holl and droog design. then jiddy and sarah and i left to go to the pub/library. i like sarah, she's from houston and is just very cool - she has these fancy cowboy boots and monogrammed cardigans and stuff...she suggested we eat dinner sometime, which made me happy. she knew a ton about droog design, too.. i felt embarassed for saying "drOOg" instead of "draghh" like the dutch would. she saw one of their designers speak a while ago. also jiddy revealed she and whitney are thinking about applying to eindhoven in holland, for the "IM" program, which is the "interior, industrial and identity design program." WTF? it sounds awesome. of course a program like that would be in the netherlands. never have i seen such bizarre synthesis of interior/product/commercial design...row houses painted sky blue and galleries consisting of hilarious couches and projections of fireplaces and stuff. that place was nuts. i also got drunker in rotterdam than i've ever been in a dinner-setting, at a restaraunt called "new york" right by the erasmus bridge. embarassing, but also funny.

i went to drudgereport.com this morning as is my wont after i wake up, and i saw this headline, "FORECAST: CHAOS" and they had a picture of a skyline, i think manhattan..it was like all my crazy apocolypse-dreams were coming true, i couldn't imagine, was it a huge blizzard, a hurricane, an airborne toxic event ala white noise? but no, it was something both dissapointing and scarier than those things - the results from the big climate change report or whatever it's called. very frightening.

i'm not really looking forward to math tomorrow. it's getting more boring/weirder/harder by the day.

GOD DAMN IT the new girl next door is having really loud, freaky sex. great. i guess i can expect this for the next four months. i think i'm done with this.